I should be dead.

Seriously, blogger.

I was released from UIC hospital on the 1st of August, after having a Cavernoma removed from my brain.

If I would have been alone in my room, my parents would have been burying me. Luckily I was in bed with my girlfriend. She saved my life.

I haven't been able to process it yet. Is that possible? How do I end up on the fast track again, when I feel I've just been reborn.

I guess the only thing I can do now, is hold on tight, and enjoy the ride.

All the love in the world
-AV

Album 2010

This album is so clooooose. I just need like $3000.


No one knows who I am yet, and that's okay with me! For now...
I wonder if someone will actually read these posts someday.

Why do I always talk about life?

Aren't there other things to discuss? Some of the things I say don't even make sense.

"I woke up as the sun was reddening; and that was the one distinct time in my life, the strangest moment of all, when I didn't know who I was — I was far away from home, haunted and tired with travel, in a cheap hotel room I'd never seen, hearing the hiss of steam outside, and the creak of the old wood of the hotel, and footsteps upstairs, and all the sad sounds, and I looked at the cracked high ceiling and really didn't know who I was for about fifteen strange seconds."
- Jack Kerouac, On the Road, Part 1, Ch. 3
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These aren't my words. But my God they are beautiful. Life these past few months has shown itself in a numerous amount of ways.

It has seemed distant at times, alive, fed up, boring, impatient, speedy, remarkable, unbelievable, quiet, loud, quaint, and uncommon.

Sometimes I feel like I'm running along side life on a giant track. I get ahead, and wait for it to catch up; but once it does it zooms passed me and then it has to wait for me.

Life is a duel. But still works one step at a time.

My Parents shouldn't have to pay for everything.

I've never felt this close to walking out of this Hotel, only to devote my life to the one thing that makes the most sense to me. I feel I wouldn't be credited for an action like that, but with me working for money in this menial and consumer-driven lifestyle, what difference does it make?

Give me music or give me death. People that aren't as fortunate as me need the escape that tunes can give them.

Let me hand something good out?

It's been a while.

There is so much to be done. There is so little time.



I won't stop until I get there.

See you on the other side. Where the grass is greener and the skies perfect blue.

There is a guest that stays at the hotel I work for.
His name is Tony Dodge. He was extremely close to playing professional football.



Growing up, Mr. Dodge was best friends with Matt Skiba of Alkaline Trio.



Today, Mr. Dodge told me to never stop following my dreams. He took down my band's myspace page.
Mr. Dodge made my day. He knows people in L.A., apparently.

I'm at work. I sometimes put up a sign.

It reads: "I have stepped away from the desk to help another guest. I will return shortly. Thank you for your patience while I am gone."

This is in fact, complete b.s.

I want to go home and write songs.

All the love in the world.

-Andy

My virgin blog.

It's great to be a member of this awesome website. I hope to continue using this, as a tool to communicate with the people who wish to read it, and who continue to listen to the music I and three other wonderful guys create. (more on that later)

Things like this may seem menial, but hey it's the internet. It's all menial right!?

It's great to know the music is still alive, it's great to know that people are still around. These are hard and heavy times, but the craft of music will get us to the next chapter, and through today and onto the next.

Recession-shemssion. Screw the economy's situation. Screw Madoff. I'm a firm believer in the market; what goes up must come down SOME time. Trust in working hard for what you earn, don't give up fighting for what you want, and never let anyone tell you different.

This is one of the greatest countries in the world, and we don't go down like little whiny school kids on the monkey bars. Sure, we're WAY overweight, but we're not crybabies. ;)


Pilgrims: (Finally right!?)

The song writing is going especially well. Ryan joining this band has been tremendous. Our songs are maturing, our sound is maturing, and we are maturing. Okay who are we kidding, we're not maturing but the tunes sound great!

We finished up the first song off the album @ Comatose Studios in Peotone, IL with engineer Dennis. Gentlmen Ain't in Season has been on the Myspace site ever since.

Next in line for tracking I believe is our semi-ballad titled "Feel More". It's a doozy. I can't wait to get this song recorded i'm soooooo excited for it. By the way if anyone has about $10,000 they just want to maybe lend me for possible lifetime guilt-free sex let me know. Men. Women. Children. I don't discriminate.

Like I said earlier, it's great to be on this site, and I hope this continues and stays fresh in our trendy lives.
All the love in the world.
-Andy